Roll With It
Good morning, it’s finally Friday!!! And not only is it Friday but it’s a long weekend (for most of you I hope!)
Plans for me include heading out to Key West for the weekend up until Monday. Sounds like a blast right? Eh here’s something you should know about me if you didn’t already. I am a creature of habit. Let me rephrase that: I hate change. I hate not being in control of what I eat, what time I eat, whether or not I can exercise.
(I kinda thought this picture was appropriate)
Although I never actually suffered from anorexia the mindset is there. A few blogs that have really hit home have been from Amanda, Jenny, and Megan all relating to intuitive eating. Just eat when you’re hungry and listen to your body…Sounds easy enough right? I can put down a good amount of food and you can all attest to that but I’m always mentally conscious of what I’m eating. To be disconnected from calorie content, ingredients, and macronutrients churns my stomach.
What possible damage can I do from 4 days of “regular” eating? None really…But I can’t relax, I just can’t go with the flow.
Oats for breakfast? No.
Sammich for lunch? No.
Chicken and veggies for dinner? No
Bowl of cottage cheese and pb for late night snackage? No
The whole weekend will consists of burgers, hot dogs, fried fish, rice, chips, soda, bacon, and junk food galore. It’s very overwhelming to me and I can feel my IBS just thinking about it. I like being in control of what I eat, take that away from me and I immediately picture a fat girl in my shoes. I wish I had friends that believed in the value of nutrient dense foods, I wish I had a gym buddy that loved to lift weights and could spot me. I don’t. I have myself and my equally health nut boyfriend. I’m glad he loves my bowl of oats because no one else would dare eat them.
I know this is a very touchy subject, I’m trying my best to feel comfortable in outside situations and to just eat like a “normal” person. The thing is, I don’t want to be normal. Normal = overweight. I’d rather be abnormal. A fit girl in an unhealthy society. It’s crazy to think that I’ll gain 5 lbs in 4 days but the mental anxiety takes over my body. I don’t do well with foreign foods. After a day of eating crap I crave veggies like a mad woman.
This is definitely out of my comfort zone but I’m going to do my best and just roll with it. Well ok no more rambling, I’ll leave you with some foodie pics
Adapted from Ashley’s buckwheat bake
Ok friends now I need some serious advice,if you’ve been in my situation traveling with friends who didn’t support your lifestyle how did you deal with their way of eating?
See you all Monday night!!